Sorry I have been a slacker with my posts, but here is a new one!
Since I have lost weight especially lately (I don't mean to sound conceited) but a lot of the opposite sex has been pay attention to me. Now why this make me happy and sad at the same time is, it has really showed me how you are treated sooooooooo differently when your fat and that really makes me sad and pissed off. Hello, I am the same person now as I was when I was fatter there is just less of me now. For people that don’t actually know me, and are just strictly going by looks, my face is still the same just more saggy skin now and less roundness, and for people that do know me, my personality is still the same, the body is just different.
I have had more men hold the doors open for me now then ever, when I was fat I actually had some people let the door go in my face, now these people could be rude assholes in general and it had nothing to do with my weight. Now it is like they go out of their way to hold the door for me or help me out in someway or another, and they look right at me smiling, before if the door was held for me they really were not looking at me. I was at Spirit Mountain Casino and I was standing there watching my mom win millions, no not really, she wasn’t really winning millions lol, but one of the workers walked past us and next thing I know he tapped me on the shoulder and he had a chair he had drug over and said here have a seat while you watch, I have NEVER had someone do that at Spirit Mt. (and we have been there plenty of times). When I was at the mall the guys that are trying to sell things down the middle of the mall, they kept trying to stop me to sell me their shit, again when I was fat none of them were aggressively trying to get my business, unless they were selling a food item lol.
Another one that really pisses me off, is we have a friend that has always been nice to me, but now he always gives me hugs when he see me, and I mean not just a hi how are ya quick hug, they are full body lengthy hugs (and no this person doesn’t read my blog so they wont know I am bitching about them). Again it just pisses me off that I am treated so differently now that I am thinner, I am the same person and it is very sad to me to see how differently fat people are treated, that just isn’t right!! I wasn’t a ugly dog before so it has to be the fact that I guess in a lot of peoples eyes being fat just isn’t attractive. Well those people don’t know what they are missing out on, there is a hell of a lot of wonderful, kind, and good looking people out there, that just happen to have some extra weight on them and those people wont give them the time of day and get to know them, well it is there loss, fuck them!!!
Now this has also gone the other way, some fat people are treating me badly now, making snide comments here and there to me, making jokes of how I have lost the weight, saying I am to skinny now, or making fun of what I eat or I should say what I don’t eat any longer. I guess it goes both ways. I often feel like I am in a no win situation, when I was fat some skinny people were discussed by me, and now that I am thinner some fat people are not happy with me either! I guess I just don’t need to let other opinions of me bother me whether I am fat or thinner. I have worked my ass off and am happy with who I am now and most importantly I feel better and that’s all that should count!!!
